Gossip Free

I am on day six of not reading any of the gossip web sites and I don't miss it. I even deleted them from the bookmarks on my computer so I don't go there out of habit. I don't feel any better or worse for it though. Just like when I gave up drinking diet soda and caffeine...I don't feel any better from it and certainly didn't lose any weight. I'm convinced that many of the things we are told are "bad" for us aren't really that bad. OK, certain things like smoking, yes, very bad, I know that all too well. But are caffeine, artificial sweeteners and high fructose corn syrup really all that bad? I wonder how much of what we do affects our health vs. the environment and genetic factors. I know I'm far from perfect, but I try to lead a healthy life and things still happen to me. I don't want to publicly tell my health problems, but I'm going through something scary right now and I can't help but wonder if I am to blame or if certain things are just out of our control. I don't accept that things just happen with no reason because I want to funnel my anger towards something. With my headaches/neck problems...I was in an accident so I understand where the pain came from. My parents smoked cigarettes for years and both got lung cancer. Those things make sense, but others don't. I may be gossip free, but peace is still eluding me.